Because My Place is Here

So I unearthed this old poem from my Tumblr account. I used to write a lot of poems. Many were sad. This one is one of the most emotional ones, I think. I shall write more poems again, happier ones.  


Not that you asked, but I want to tell you how I feel.

I feel stuck, immobile, unable to extend action or compassion far enough for you to feel and acknowledge.

Not that you asked, but I want so much to be by your side.
I want to hold your hand when you feel pain and despair. You are not alone.

Not that you asked, but I want to be your source of courage and strength. 
I want to help you accept what we cannot change and cannot foresee with an open heart. 

Not that you asked, but I want to tell you every day that you will be okay.
Though we both know that ‘okay’ can amass to countless meanings, everything will always be okay in the end.

Not that you asked, but I want to help you rise above this obstacle.
I believe you to be a great many things, one of which is no quitter. I know you will keep standing up.

Not that you asked, but I want to make you smile and laugh when you feel like there is no longer any reason to.
Laughter was our greatest companion;let it be so again.

Knowing my place is knowing that I can’t give anything voluntarily without you asking.
If only you’d ask. 

– Aug 31, 2011


Tips for Your First Workout After an Illness 

I recently got sick. Not the three-day kind that just temporarily knocks you off because you haven’t been getting enough sleep. It was the kind that really steers you off and getting back is not as simple. I had an infection that kept recurring for two weeks, I was brought to the ER twice, and I had to rest A LOT.

Those who know me are well aware that I love to exercise. Being sick meant zero exercise to allow my body to fully recuperate. While I knew this was absolutely necessary for my overall health, I also knew that this meant I’d have to start all over once I resume my many fitness activities.


The first day back is always very difficult. It’s frustrating and it’s very tempting to just wing it and just continue what you were doing. Stop right there! I would not recommend doing this. You don’t want to just pick up where you left off. You might just hurt yourself or get sick again. Instead, you want to be sure that the choices you make on day one are going to help you regain the fitness level you were in prior to the illness (not the other way around).  So, based on my experience, here are a few tips for your first workout after getting sick.

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